the past there
were times that i loved living in groups too. But,
those aforementioned 8 years i would say only 35% of the time spend
living in these groups was
really good (as i think it should be). The other 65% of the time it was
And that ratio just doesn't fucking
cut it we me anymore. When i moved here i was really hoping that not
only the first few months to a year would be really nice (like it was
those groups). This wish was granted.
Since i live here I have had some great times alone and with others and I have never had to put up with:
-Stupid arguments, factions, fights, group dynamics, negativity aggression, jealousy.
-Other people's filth and stench (some people i lived with were really out there)
-Drug Abuse (i don't mean use which i am fine with, i mean abuse and all it's
-A continues stream of guests many of which are not at all inspiring or overstay their welcome by far.
-Pubescent, inconsiderate and anti-social behaviour from my housemates to the neighbours and/or their peers.
-Etc,... the list could go on for quite a bit but why bother.
I would like to make very clear
that the behaviour i mention above i encountered in both squats and
student houses. Also I wouldn't want anyone to get the
impression that all the people i lived with were disasters. That isn't
true, some of them were great individuals and i still have a lot of
love for a few. Some of them just did the best they could (like me) and
did good by me as well as themselves. Or, as good as their experience
and the circumstances allowed. In one or two instances i myself was
largely to blame for some of the shit. And in a few cases i feel one or
two individuals i lived with were or chose to be totally fucked up and
These days i bear no hate, ill will
or grudge against
even the individuals that did very badly by me. I just "seem to
feel better when they are not around" (Barfly). A LOT better. Lucky for
me that has
exactly the way it turned out since i moved to where i now live.
the going is really good in a group it is not just "good", it is a
true family and this bond results in an extremely inspiring and happy
time for all those involved.
This feeling is nigh impossible to recreate when one lives alone. But
since in my experience this bond has always been very
realize for me it is not worth the ultimate cost.
The neighborhood and location of my
very good as well. Close to almost every place i like and need to go
minimal aggro or "ghetto attitude" outside my front door. Especially
to many other areas in this city.
I dig it here.
And although in a not too distant future i hope to find
great people to live with/become a great person to live with, for now i
very happy where i am at. And if the owner wants me out?
Well, then i'll see them in court.
May i be here for a while yet.